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Sunday- Lake Day

I woke up this past Saturday morning in a total slump. One of my very good friends was having her baby shower and I had really planned on going. I laid in bed for a really long time not wanting to get out or do anything. Once I did I wandered around the house not really knowing what to do with myself. I couldn't go to the shower. I just couldn't. I was totally down in the dumps and no one would want poor pitiful Sarah around. After everything I have been through and all the things I have done since I just can't figure out why showers are so hard. I remember my shower so well. It was wonderful and I was so happy. Maybe that's why.... that was the last time I was with all of my friends and was so happy about Mamie coming. I ran a hot bath and sunk down into the hot water for ah..........about 2 hours. I felt like all the energy in my body had run out. Taylor came in to tell me that his sister and her husband would be there any minute so we could go down to the game. :( Getting ready and socializing was not what I wanted to do. I needed to snap out of it. Being around people would be good for me. We headed down to the game and I ended up having a blast. Taylor and I always enjoy being around Ashley and Drew. There is always a lot of laughing between the 4 of us.
Sunday morning Taylor and I decided to head over to the lake. The weather was amazing. We loaded Gus up in the jeep and headed out. I got to visit with my Grandmother a bit and then Taylor and I drove the boat over to Ashley and Drew's house. Ken and Cissy were there visiting so we got to see them. Ken wasn't feeling very good. He has been having chemo weekly for his lung cancer. After they headed out for Dumas we went out for a swim with the twins. It was a lovely day.
The sky was so pink when Taylor and I were heading back to the house in the boat. It was so beautiful and peaceful. Mamie, I believe, was saying hello to her mommy and daddy.

Taylor let me drive the boat for a few minutes :) I think I would rather sit back and chill instead of drive.

Drew, Ashley, Taylor and I took the twins and Gus out to swim. Gus really likes to be around those two.

Is this not the funniest picture.

Stud muffin

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