I woke up this past Saturday morning in a total slump. One of my very good friends was having her baby shower and I had really planned on going. I laid in bed for a really long time not wanting to get out or do anything. Once I did I wandered around the house not really knowing what to do with myself. I couldn't go to the shower. I just couldn't. I was totally down in the dumps and no one would want poor pitiful Sarah around. After everything I have been through and all the things I have done since I just can't figure out why showers are so hard. I remember my shower so well. It was wonderful and I was so happy. Maybe that's why.... that was the last time I was with all of my friends and was so happy about Mamie coming. I ran a hot bath and sunk down into the hot water for ah..........about 2 hours. I felt like all the energy in my body had run out. Taylor came in to tell me that his sister and her husband would be there any minute so we could go down to th...