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Thanksgiving 2009

We spent Thanksgiving over in Hot Springs with Taylor's family. I was very nervous with it being 5mths since Mamie had gone to heaven. It was a beautiful day and we had a lovely time all hanging out. Taylor and I took Mamie's candle and had it lit for her all day. Mamie was remembered that day as we said our prayer and that meant a lot to both Taylor and I. Hayden & CooperJackson and Brayden

5 months

Today I woke up to the sun shining outside and the sound of the windchimes. I laid in bed for a while just thinking of Mamie. What would we be doing today if she were here? I miss her so much. This past week has not been the best for me. I have felt like I have gone back to the very day that we found out she was gone. My heart hurts and my arms ache from the emptiness of not being able to hold her. The other day I started crying when Britney and Silas were here. He stood at my feet looking up at me with sad eyes. Britney told him that Kiki was sad and it is okay to cry when you are sad. He kept looking at me and then he said "Kiki needs Mamie." As sad as I was right then I smiled and looked at him and said "I do need Mamie". He is so aware of everything. We hadn't even said her name and he knew. I pray for God to give me the strength to make it through the holidays without her. It just isn't fair! Her special candle will burn…

Candle Light Ceremony