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5 months

Today I woke up to the sun shining outside and the sound of the windchimes. I laid in bed for a while just thinking of Mamie. What would we be doing today if she were here? I miss her so much. This past week has not been the best for me. I have felt like I have gone back to the very day that we found out she was gone. My heart hurts and my arms ache from the emptiness of not being able to hold her. The other day I started crying when Britney and Silas were here. He stood at my feet looking up at me with sad eyes. Britney told him that Kiki was sad and it is okay to cry when you are sad. He kept looking at me and then he said "Kiki needs Mamie." As sad as I was right then I smiled and looked at him and said "I do need Mamie". He is so aware of everything. We hadn't even said her name and he knew. I pray for God to give me the strength to make it through the holidays without her. It just isn't fair! Her special candle will burn both today and tomorrow for her.

I have been trying to keep myself busy this morning. I have been amazed by so many that have remembered and sent emails of encouragement. You don't know how much that means. The doorbell rang a little while ago. Britney, Jason and Silas sent us flowers. The note said "Remembering Mamie. We love you.". They are so beautiful.

Taylor is taking off work at noon today so we can spend the afternoon together. I am so blessed to have such an amazing man for a husband.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. God Bless Sarah


  1. my heart aches for you. i pray that you find peace today. i have so much hope for you and taylor...i will be thinking of you and sweet maime all day. love you!

  2. I am hoping and praying for more "Kiki needs Mamie" moments in your life...the little things that just bring a smile to your face!:)
    love- Evelyn

  3. I am praying for you and Taylor over the next few weeks. (((hugs)))

  4. what a beautiful story. thank you for sharing it with us. we are keeping all three of you in our prayers! Tabitha

  5. thinking of you all...kate

  6. Been thinking about you lots over the Thanksgiving break! Can't wait to get back to LR and see you before you're off to Jackson Hole! Loves and miss you, and give Taylor my love too!

  7. Thinking of you here in Houston. I imagine the holidays being so difficult. May God hold you close in his arms.
    Some words that might comfort you from:

    Grief is a process, not a state. --Anne Grant

    Grief is itself a medicine. --William Cowper

    He that conceals his grief finds no remedy for it. --Turkish Proverb

    Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. --Matthew 5:4

    Love, Tina D

  8. You've all been and continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you peace, strength and hope these next few weeks.

  9. Sarah - I've been thinking about you & Mamie a lot during the recent weeks. Something about the holidays and being with family just has turned my thoughts to y'all. I wish you peace & comfort. Lots of love and prayers headed your way!


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