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Monday, March 29, 2010

Please Pray!

Today has been a very emotional day. I got a text around 10am from NILMDTS that a baby that was delivered at 38 weeks was about to pass. I froze when I saw the text. It made me so sick to think of what that family was going through. The whole day my head has been in the clouds thinking of this family. Why does this have to happen?

Just a little while ago Taylor and I were snuggled up on the couch having a glass of wine and watching tv when I got a call from one of my favorite wedding clients from a few years back. She began crying as she told me her cousin went in for her 38 week check up today and they could not find the heartbeat...... I immediately began having flash backs of me sitting in the ultrasound room as they told me Mamie had died. What is going on??? I just want to scream right now! My client wanted to know if I would be willing to photograph their precious baby once he was delivered. That was a question I didn't have to think about. I told her I would for sure be there if they wanted me to.

My heart is broken for these two families. I just don't understand. I am writing tonight to ask you all to please pray for these families. The power of prayer is an amazing thing. I pray that God wraps His arms around them and holds them tight.

- Sarah

Thursday, March 25, 2010

9 Months

I can't say that today has been the best day. I woke up with tears streaming down my face. I didn't want to get out of bed. All I could think about was what we would be doing today if Mamie were here. First of all I know I would have been awake much earlier than 8am. Sleeping in would not be a normal routine for me. I imagine that she would be crawling and pulling up on all of the furniture. Taylor and I would have moved everything out of reach that she could get to, that she shouldn't be. The coffee table would be padded and there would be toys everywhere. I was so angry this morning. I wanted to scream and cry for hours. I sat in her nursery and looked out at the beautiful garden that is about to burst with blooms. I just don't understand why we have to be here without our sweet baby. I slowly made my way into the kitchen to get my normal cup of coffee and made my way out to my spot on the deck. I was very thankful to see the sun shining through the trees because I had prepared myself for a rainy morning. I sat there listening to the quietness of the morning and watching the most adorable bird going to and from her nest that she is building right by our back door. She looks so happy, hopping around on those skinny little legs. She was hard at work getting her home ready for her new babies. It made me smile to see her, a small bird, working away to get ready for her baby chicks to arrive. I remember this time last year. I was really starting to pop out, and we were hard at work getting the house and nursery ready for our little Mamie. Later in the morning I decided to take Gus for a walk with Britney and Silas. It was really nice to get out and sweat a bit. I don't know if that makes any of you feel good but it does me. Silas did most of the talking :). He cracks me up and I can't tell you guys how great it is to be around that little guy. He knows how to make his Kiki laugh. This afternoon when I was sitting in Silas' room he was playing with all of his toys. He had his radio on, and he ran over to get his guitar and said he was ready to jam out. We were both "jamming out" with our guitars, and all I could think about was Mamie. I imagined her sitting on the floor staring up at the both of us laughing like we were crazy. I remember how much she kicked in my stomach when Silas was around, and she could hear his voice. I bet he would have made her laugh all the time. They would have been the best of friends..... After Silas got up from his nap we decided to go to Garden Ridge to get some Easter eggs that I could string and hang in a tree in Mamie's garden. I decided to put them in the dogwood we planted close to her bench. It looks adorable. While I was out hanging eggs the wind chimes were going crazy. Every time we hear the them Taylor and I say, "Mamie is talking to us". I think today she was trying to tell me not to be sad. The garden is looking so beautiful. Some of the hot pink azalea's are starting to bloom and the 200 tulips are coming up and I can't wait for them to bloom. I will take pictures as soon as they do to show you guys. I want to say that I am so thankful for such great friends and my loving family. All of the phone calls and emails today has really meant the world to Taylor and I. Britney, thanks for getting me out of the house and just letting me talk. The things you said about seeing Mom in heaven holding Mamie's hands while she tries to walk and Pop saying "Come here Mamie" makes me happy. I can see that too. It started as a really bad day but many things today also warmed my heart and that I am thankful for. We love you sweet sweet Mamie and will never forget you. -Sarah

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I am still here I promise!!!!

Just wanted to drop a quick note to all my faithful friends, family
and readers out there. I know some of you might think I have fallen
off the face of the earth but I promise I will be back with a long
post soon. Life has been about the same. Taylor and I are so
thankful Spring is almost here. This winter has been very long, cold
and depressing. Please check back soon for an update on what's going
on in the Adams' household.

Much Love,

Sarah

Monday, March 8, 2010

Superstar

It's a beautiful day here today. Silas and I are out enjoying the sun on the deck. - Sarah

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Disney World 2010

We went to Disney World a few weekends back and it was amazing. Not only was it the first time for Silas but for Britney and me too. I put together a video set to Silas' favorite song. Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend. The weather is amazing here today. - Sarah