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Late Night

We had a really good night. Taylor came home and started working on the front yard while I got dinner ready. He kept yelling for me to come out to see all the turtles he was finding. We saw a baby turtle and he was high tailing it for cover. I have never seen a turtle move that fast. He was so cute. We invited my parents over for dinner and they arrived about the same time Alyson did. Just minutes after the timer went off on the oven. I have never timed dinner so perfectly. After dinner we all set out on the deck. After my parents went home Alyson and I decided to stay outside and keep talking. She is such an amazing person and is like a sister to me. We have known each other since 7th grade and the day we meet I knew we would be life long friends. While we were talking Taylor came out to see if I had checked my email lately. Our bereavement support group "Journey" is this Sunday. We had received an email of reminder and to let us know that there was a new couple that just had a stillborn................................. I am sitting here now because I can't sleep. My heart is hurting so bad. I know exactly what they are feeling. I don't even know them and I want to go to the hospital right now to hug them and cry with them. I feel sick to my stomach knowing the pain that they are feeling right now. Why does this happen? Why can't we have our babies? It just isn't fair! All I can do is pray....

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  1. I will be praying for this couple. (((hugs)))

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  2. I found your blog through Kelly's and have been drawn to it since. I have not had a stillbirth but was so drawn to your story. The completely surreal thing is that one of my best friends is giving birth to her stillborn baby tonight. We have been with her at the hospital and it has been a true journey. Right after I received her phone call I had a strong urge to email you to see what we could do for her. I couldn't believe that you had just posted the saint charm necklace because she is catholic and I thought what a perfect charm for the charm bracelet that she wears daily. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of Mamie. Saying special prayers for you and all of the families that have been affected by stillbirths.

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  3. Prayers for them, and that you and Taylor might find some comfort in being able to comfort them.

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