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5 Years!!!!!!

As I sit here tonight thinking back on the what was happening this very moment 5 years ago I get a sick feeling in my stomach and a huge lump in my throat.  I was in labor with our precious Mamie.  Knowing that she would be coming out and we would never hear her cry.  She would be born a sleeping angel.  Wow...... the emotions and memories flood through me like it happened just yesterday.  I sit and think about what she would be doing today.  Turning 5 is a big milestone.  She would be getting ready to start Kindergarten in the Fall.  She would be in the same grade as her cousins Cooper, Hayden and Brayden.  She would be going to Baker Elementary and be just a grade behind her cousin Silas.  I know they would all be such great friends.  Over these past years I have learned so much from her.  How to love better, how to lean on my Faith, how to take every moment as it comes and cherish all of them, to give back and help others, and to remember what is really important in life.

Mamie you are so loved!  We miss you so very much.  I know tomorrow will be an amazing day in Heaven as you celebrate your birthday.  We will be celebrating all you have done for us.  Even though you are not here we feel your presence every moment of the day.  You have changed us forever and I CANNOT WAIT to see you again.  What a day that will be!

Happy Birthday my precious love!










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