Busy Week

These past couple of weeks have been a bit of a blur. Besides being extremely busy with work last week was also a very emotional one. Monday is where the craziness began. NILMDTS sends out a mass text whenever they have been called in for a photographer. That is when the text began coming in and continued everyday last week with another loss of a baby. It was overwhelming and just made my heart ache. Lynette has told me that there are peak times when this happens and Spring is one of those. There are just so many people due around this time. I was able to go and photograph my previous clients cousin sweet baby boy on Tuesday. This is my second session but my first full term baby. He was so beautiful. Dark hair with curls and the most precious face. I had to get myself in the zone to document all his little features that will last this family a life time. I think the hardest part was being there with this lifeless little body that was perfect in every way while just in the other room there were about 10 newborn babies being taken care of in the nursery. I kept hearing one crying and would peek in to see. It just didn't seem fare. Why are some babies here only for a short time before they meet their maker? Having faith in God and knowing that you will see your little angels again is the only way you can get through it. When we took the baby in with the family it was really hard. I felt like I was reliving it all over again. Every situation is different and everyone handles it differently but the whole scene was the same. People keep telling me how brave and strong I am to be able to do this after everything we have been through. I can't take credit for that. God has given me that strength. I feel His presence more than ever. There is a song that I am totally obsessed with by Mercy Me called "Bring the Rain". I have it as my alarm in the morning. What better way to wake up than to a praise song. Here are the lyrics, I can count a million times People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone through The question just amazes me Can circumstances possibly Change who I forever am in You Maybe since my life was changed Long before these rainy days It's never really ever crossed my mind To turn my back on you, oh Lord My only shelter from the storm But instead I draw closer through these times So I pray Bring me joy, bring me peace Bring the chance to be free Bring me anything that brings You glory And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above because you are much greater than my pain you who made a way for me suffering your destiny so tell me whats a little rain Holy, holy, holy Holy, holy, holy is the lord God almighty is the lord God almighty I'm forever singing everybody singing Holy holy holy you are holy you are holy

I think this sums up perfectly how I feel. /Users/sarahbphotography/Desktop/08 Bring The Rain.mp3 Mamie's garden is so beautiful right now. I have taken pictures and plan to post them soon. I miss my sweet little girl so much. - Sarah