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12 week

Well... the doppler might not be the best idea right now. I had a little scare last week. Britney and I were able to find the heartbeat just fine until Sunday night. I kept myself calm and decided I would try again Monday morning. As soon as I opened my eyes I ran and grabbed the doppler. I searched and searched but couldn't find our baby Olives heartbeat. I was a wreck. I kept telling myself it was going to be okay. But I didn't feel that way. I really had it in my head that we had lost yet another baby and if this was true I was done. No more babies I had decided. We would just have dogs and that was it. I sent Jyl a text to see if I could come in for an ultrasound. She told me I could see one of her friends at 1:30 that afternoon. I can't even begin to tell you how slow the hours went by that morning. I walked into Brit's house and sunk down into the couch I couldn't keep myself from bursting into tears. I was so scared! Taylor was out of town for work that day so mom went with me to the clinic. As soon as we got there and she rubbed that wand across my belly she said, "There's the heartbeat!" The tension in my body completely went away. We stayed for a while and watched our little acrobat. This baby is an active little booger. Little Olive was flipping all over the place and punching his/her arms and kicking the uterine wall. I can't believe I couldn't feel it. We figured since Olive is so active that is why I couldn't catch the heartbeat on my doppler. I decided to put that thing up for a while. Baby Olive has grown so much. It's little profile was so cute and I thought for a second it was a boy but she informed me that was the umbilical cord ;)
I was so relieved. I really thought this baby had gone to join our sweet Mamie in heaven.

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  1. KimberlyJanuary 6, 2011 at 2:51 PM

    Glad everything is okay! I couldn't get a good heartbeat with my at home doppler until about 14-16 weeks...Now is just a little too soon. Blessings!!!

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  2. Sarah Bussey AdamsJanuary 6, 2011 at 2:56 PM

    Yeah that was what I was thinking. I put it up for now. I am going to wait a few more weeks. I am 14 weeks now but am still scared to try ;)

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  3. TashaJanuary 7, 2011 at 8:12 PM

    I don't know how many times a day I pay attention to my baby moving around in my belly. There were several times I wanted to dash to the ER but, like you, I remained calm, relaxed, and did my kick counts and all has been well so far. I'm still very nervous but trying to tell myself it will all be okay. Thinking about you!

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