Poppy Seed

I haven't blogged in a while about what has been going on around here. Tonight I got onto blogger and saw that I had a draft that I never published back from a month ago. While reading through it I realized how badly I need to get back to journaling. So below is an entry from July 30. Since we passed Mamie's first birthday things have been a little different around here. I feel like I can breath a little better. I have found a peace that I didn't think I would ever find. It is hard to believe we made it through all the "firsts" already. I look back on this time last year and, I felt like I couldn't go on. The pain is for sure still there it has just lessened. You search for a new normal after losing a child and God has been there every step of the way. He has held me up in my darkest days and stayed by my side always. So many moms that I have talked to say, you will NEVER get over the loss of your child you just learn how to live with it. Mamie ha

Taylor and I spent Mamie's year weekend over in Hot Springs. We wanted to spend time together just the two of us. We stayed at the Arlington thanks to our good friends Ashley and Dustin , and we ate yummy food thanks to Patrick, Meredith, Britney, Jason, Mom and Dad. We are so thankful for the love and thoughtfulness people have shown us throughout this whole past year. That Sunday we had close friends and family come over for a birthday celebration in honor of Mamie. It was perfect. Britney and I made flower arrangements out of herbs from our garden and bright colored zinnia's. We wanted it to be simple but sweet. Jacquelyn and Jeremy from Pa l ette Catering helped us out with the food and it was AMAZING. For the cake I wanted it to be simple with poppy flowers on it. D. from our church did exactly what I wanted and I can't wait for yall to see the pics. She put my Mamie tattoo on top and it was just perfect. We also ordered 40 balloons and after Taylor said a little s