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Remembering Mamie- 11mths

I woke up this morning feeling sick to my stomach and having a horrible headache. I decided to run a hot bath and as I was standing there so many emotions came rushing back to me. I felt like I was reliving those days after I had gotten home from the hospital without Mamie. All I wanted to do was crawl back in bed but I know that won't help at all. I decided to get myself dressed, make a big cup of coffee and spend my morning on the deck. I need some alone time. Time to myself to think about everything and be with the Lord. My heart hurts so bad today and the lump in my throat won't go away. There is not a day or minute that goes by that I don't think about Mamie. Some days are just extra hard. I feel so lost and alone. I ask God all the time what is my purpose? What am I suppose to being doing here? I know He has a plan for Taylor and I. Keeping my faith and leaning on Him is all I can do. We thank you all for your continued prayers.
We love you Mamie and miss you so so much. Happy 11 months in heaven.
- Sarah
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  1. SarahMay 25, 2010 at 11:32 AM

    We love you Sarah! I know each month is harder than the first, but know that you have so many people praying for you.

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  2. jessicaMay 25, 2010 at 4:00 PM

    love you! i wish i could take this pain away. you are in my prayers.

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  3. AnonymousMay 25, 2010 at 7:03 PM

    thinking about you, sarah! love you tons and wish i lived closer to just sit with you.

    love,
    julie scarborough

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  4. KatieMay 31, 2010 at 2:37 PM

    Sarah ~ My heart is with you, and I'm so sorry we are walking this path together. Please know I'm praying today.

    What beautiful daughters we have! Wow, they take my breath away.

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  5. Jennifer ReedJune 8, 2010 at 3:27 PM

    Thinking about you today, Sarah... prayers for peace and strength.

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  6. AnonymousJune 8, 2010 at 3:49 PM

    I have wanted to comment on your posts and/or meet you for so long. Today is the first time I feel COMPELLED to do so.
    You ask God what is your purpose?
    I found your website & blog through a mutual friend - Kerry Stiles. I have followed your story & journey since you lost your precious little girl. I have never had to endure the suffering you are feeling nor can I ever come to understand your pain except through wondering how I would face your circumstances. My mother lost her first born daughter during childbirth. I have often wondered how she ever survived and went on with her life. Sarah - you have been such an inspiration to me, not only in how you have faced each day since losing Mamie, but in your strong and unwavering faith in the Lord. I continue to read how many people you have touched through this season of your life. This, I believe Sarah, is one of your purposes. May you remain as faithful and strong as you have been throughout the rest of your life. And know, there are people you have never met out in this "internet world" that have been blessed by you and are praying for you!! Blessings, Mary Anne Newton (ileadyouth@hotmail.com)

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