It's been awhile

I hope everyone is having a great holiday season. I haven't posted in a while. We have been super busy with work and things are finally slowing down. Taylor and I have been doing well. Just trying to get through the holiday's without totally loosing it. We decided not to decorate this year. We just didn't have it in us. I did put a little Christmas tree on the front porch so we don't look like total scrooges.

Last weekend Taylor and I went to Fayetteville for Owen's baptism. I was really worried about how I would handle it all but I did really well. Right before the ceremony started I had to excuse myself and have a little cry. I stood in this tiny little bathroom staring in the mirror at my red eyes. I kept praying to God to give me the strength to get through this. A few minutes later Taylor came through the door. He asked me if I was okay and if I wanted to go back in. I looked at him and he gave me a smile. I knew right then I would be okay. I love my husband so much and am so blessed to have him. Being the godmother I got to stand up with Jayna and Matthew during the beautiful service. It was very special. Owen looked like a little doll in his Christening gown. What a beautiful baby.

I have a few special things I want to share with you guys.

First is the gift Ashley (Taylor's sister) and Drew gave us for Christmas. It is a prefect addition for the garden.

Second, Britney bought a mini Christmas tree to take down to Mamie's grave. She bought sweet ornaments that we hung all over it.

Third is a book that a friend from high school made for me right after Mamie died. I haven't seen her probably since she graduated and she is 2 years older than me. So around 13 yrs. When the package arrived I was speechless. The thought and love that she put into it just amazes me. She took quotes that people had left on my facebook page for Taylor and I and printed them on white cards. Then she left places for me to put pictures of Mamie through out the book. It is perfect. I finally put it together and we have it out in our den with a hot pink dragon fly sitting on top for everyone to see. I love it so much.

Lastly, I have been wanting to get a tattoo ever since Mamie died. I emailed a friend photographer who is also an amazing graphic designer. We talked a little bit about what I was wanting. I told him how we called her Poppy Seed before we found out at 15 weeks that she was a girl and then we named her Mamie. He came up with a few different designs. The first one he sent me I knew was the ONE right when I saw it. I have been holding on to the design trying to decide when to get it. I thought I would get it close to Christmas day since that will be 6mths on the day. Well, this past Tuesday we headed down to 7th street and I got my Mamie tattoo. I love that it is on my left wrist and how sweet and dainty it is. I am left handed and I can see it all the time. I was so happy when Amanda, Britney and Becky said they would come along. I really wished that Taylor could have been there but he was stuck in meetings. So without further ado..... What I love about it design is the poppy seed down at the bottom and then sit swivels up into her name.

Thanks to Amanda for the amazing pictures! Here is a slideshow