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It's been awhile!

We heard back from my doctor last week and my homocysteine levels came
back normal. That is a good thing from what I have heard. We are
still a little confused on all the information we were given but my
doctor sounded very hopeful that we will be able to have more
children. Hearing this did bring a smile to my face. Knowing that we
can have more children gives us hope for the future. Having another
baby will never take away that hole in our hearts that we have for
Mamie. We will never forget her. She is our first born and we will
miss her always.

Taylor and I went to see Dr. Baltz (my hematologist) last week. They
ended up taking TONS of blood again which I was not expecting. Dr.
Baltz was super nice and very sensitive to our loss. He is going to
check my homocysteine levels again and I will be going back for
another appointment the first of October. Pretty much they believe
that Mamie's placenta was small because it wasn't getting the
nutrients that it needed from my body. Since I have the 2 abnormal
enzymes my body has a hard time metabolizing folic acid which is very
important for a pregnancy. I have been put on 2 different prescribed
supplements that I will take the rest of my life. This gives my body
more folic acid, b12 and b6.

I know it has been a while since I blogged. There has been so much
going on around here. It seems like every day we hear of something
bad that has happened. I don't know what is going on. Last week we
found out that Taylor's mom has breast cancer. We are all so worried
and hoping that the doctors caught it early. As of last Friday she
was given a few different options of what they can do. We pray that
God will hold Cissy up and give her strength and helps her stay
positive through all of this. Last week I also got a call that a
friend from high school passed away. He is married to a precious girl
that also went to high school with us and has two little boys. It
makes me sick to think of what their family is going through right
now. He was such a kind hearted person. Last time I saw him was a
few months ago when I photographed a bride at their house. He will be
missed by so many. The funeral is this afternoon.

Mamie's garden looks beautiful! It is going to bloom all different
color pinks just for her. It is full of Japanese maples, fern, hosta,
light pink azalea, hot pink azalea, grasses, gardenias, and crepe
myrtles. Britney bought some pink tulip bulbs that we need to get in
the ground soon. I can't wait to see what it looks like in the
spring. Taylor's family surprised us with a bench with Mamie's name
and birthday engraved on the seat. It is so beautiful and perfect for
her garden. I plan to get a few dogwoods to plant by the bench. We
hope to do that soon.

I shot my first wedding since Mamie died this past weekend in
Fayetteville. I was really nervous but once I got there I got in my
zone. The bride and her family happened to be family friends of ours
so Mom and Britney were there as well. I started to get a little
choked up when the ceremony started. I guess just thinking that we
will never get to have that with Mamie. Taylor will never get to walk
her down the aisle and give her way. It just made me sad. As the
bridesmaids were walking down the aisle I looked up and saw a
beautiful butterfly flying around in the balcony. That lump in my
throat went away and I began smiling. Mamie was there with me and she
wanted me to know....

- Sarah

Comments

  1. She was with you as she always will be! Love you girl...can't wait to see the garden. Please tell Taylor that I'm keeping Sissy and the whole Adams clan in my prayers right now, and of course your's as well. Love you!

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  2. I am glad to hear you got some good news but sorry for the bad news. Praying for your mother in law. Take care!

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  3. Sarah-

    I have the same "disorder," or enzyme problem. With both my first baby and now with this 2nd pregnancy, I see not only my regular OB, but I also see a perinatalist every 4 weeks, and then once a week after 32 weeks. This gives everyone great peace of mind, because they check the placenta, brain stem, and check for all of the other typical "problems" that can happen because of the enzyme issue. I don't think the average woman is tested for this disorder- I was only tested due to my mom dying from a blood problem at a young age.

    I'm glad that you have answers, and I hope me having made it over that same enzyme hurdle gives you confidence that you will indeed have more children one day.

    -Amy Cowan

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  4. I agree with Amy. I have three chromosomal defects (MTHFR, PAI-1, and Factor V) and we saw our Maternal/Fetal specialist this past Friday. He gave us such comfort and peace about trying to have a healthy baby! I would highly recommended sitting down with one even before conception and discussing all of your options!

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  5. Love you sis. And yes, Mamie's garden is beautiful! I almost drive into the neighbor's yard every time I am leaving your house b/c I am looking at your yard :-)

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  6. Keeping Cissy in my prayers. I can't wait to see Mamie's garden. I know it is just beautiful! What great encouragement and support this blog brings you. Thanks for sharing. Love and miss you, Jayna

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  7. I know that you don't know me, but I found you through my SIL's blog. I was diagnosed with severe anemia while I was pregnant with our youngest. In February, my OB sent me to Dr. Baltz. In my first visit, he immediately told me that I had two choices. I could have a blood transfusion or an iron infusion. I had the iron infusion a few days later. I had no idea that it was a life or death thing which is probably good. I just wanted you to know that you are in very good hands with Dr. Baltz. He has been a huge blessing in our lives. Just wanted you to know that I've been praying for you. While I've never lost a baby that I could hold and I can't begin to imagine what you have gone through, we have two babies we lost early in pregnancy. May God bless you as you find your new normal.

    - Rachel

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