Poppy Seed

Taylor and I have been given the okay to try and get pregnant again. I haven't blogged about it because I really wasn't sure I wanted everyone to know. I remember everyone saying how fertile you are after you have a baby and how most people get pregnant quickly. It has been 4 months now and I have really been struggling with all of this. I guess I had it in my head that God wouldn't make us wait very long after all the pain we have gone through. For those of you who don't know it took us right around a year to get pregnant with Mamie. I am not big into taking drugs. Not that I think it is bad for people to take medicine. It just isn't for me. My mom found out about this book called "The Infertility Cure" written by Randine Lewis, Ph.D. You can click on the book and it will link to a book store. We ran out and got the book and I began interviewing acupuncturist. I found a wonderful lady Dr. Lei at Shie Ji Acupuncture Clinic . She is an amazing woman. N

Hey Everyone, I can't believe another month has already gone by. Today is 7 months Mamie has been in heaven. I woke up this morning feeling peaceful. The sun is coming up and I think it is going to be a beautiful day. I can hear Mamie's wind chimes out in the garden and it makes me smile. Every time they chime we say, "Mamie is talking to us." Gosh I miss her so much........Taylor and I went down to the cemetery this weekend to pick up around her grave. We decided to take the stone that Drew and Ashley gave us. I hate not having a marker for her but we all have to sit down and discuss and choose since both my parents and Taylor and I will also be buried there. We dug out some of the ground and placed the stone so it would be somewhat flush with the ground. The wreath Britney made a few months back is still holding up nicely so we left that along with an angel bear Becky one of our sweet sweet friends brought for her. It looks so good and makes me feel much

It's been a while since I have blogged. Everyday I have told myself that I need to sit down and get some words out. But each day went by and nothing was said. Our lives have been about the same around here. As most of you all know we went away for Christmas this year with my family. We rented a house out in Jackson Hole for the week and it was amazing. Taylor and I could look out our window every morning at Snow King Mountain and watch the skiers come down. The house was decorated for Christmas but not overdone. We were totally dreading the holidays. The soft white onsie with red piping and a cute little reindeer kept popping up in my head as Christmas grew closer. I bought it back at the end of the season last year from Catering to You. She would have looked so precious in it. That same day Britney and I bought matching pjs for Silas and Mamie. They were red and white pants with a matching top but it also had some lime green on it. We laughed thinking