Poppy Seed

Today Mamie would be 4mths old. I can't believe it has already been 4 months. It seems just like yesterday. It hasn't been the best day for me but the beautiful weather sure has helped. Taylor and I just got back from visiting Mamie's grave. We were so surprised when we arrived and someone had put a pumpkin there for her. I burst into tears... how speical to know that there are still so many thinking about our sweet baby girl. I have been thinking about how everyone has been taking their kids to the pumpkin patch and how we would be doing that if she was with us. Whoever brought her that pumpkin we want to thank you so much. It means the world to us. We love you Mamie and miss you so very much. -Sarah

Taylor and I were so surprised this morning when the About Vase van pulled up. Jayna and Matthew sent us the most beautiful flower arrangement. They brought a big smile to my face. Thanks guys! We love y'all so much. -Sarah

Today I have a very heavy heart. I don't know if it is because we are coming up on 4 months or maybe because this time last year was when we found out I was pregnant with our little Poppy Seed. I am just so sad right now. I can't even begin to explain the feelings I am having. I almost feel like I am drowning..... I try to catch my breath and I can't. That huge lump in my throat is back and I can't make it go away. I keep praying to God asking Him to pull me out of this dark hole. I know He is listening and that He has great things planned for Taylor and I. I guess I just wish I knew when that was. When we will see that happy again. Mamie we love you and miss you so very much -Sarah

Today is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. We miss our Mamie so much and will always remember her. I just wanted everyone out there who has gone through this horrible pain of losing a baby to know that I am praying for you extra hard today. I am so thankful to all of you that have reached out to me with your words of encouragement. Hearing from those of you that know exactly what I am going through has really helped. Your strength has given me strength. I know God has great things planned for Taylor and I. Everyone huge your sweet ones tight today and remember the sweet ones so many have lost. -Sarah